My boyfriend's back.....

Yeah, not really.  I got a random email from an ex-boyfriend of mine today.  It was a relationship that I ended and was definitely not going to pursue.  He had an anger problem that I wasn't going to let him fix on me.  In addition to that Gary was getting off of his mission, and he was my first priority to explore that option, so it was perfect timing to end my previous relationship.  It ended kinda badly.  He told me some things that affected me and even further cemented my decision to break up with him.  (I had always told every boyfriend that Gary was a possibility when he got home from his mission- I was up front about that from the start).  Anyway, so I got this message today from him today saying how he'd had things on his mind for about 10 years and that he was sorry about how he had acted and that he was embarrassed and that he had been childish and was embarrassed about that.  He said that I had been a good friend to him.  Anyway, he also told me about things that he said to me that weren't true, so I'm guessing now that he said them to hurt me because I was hurting him by leaving him.  It sure threw me for a loop getting that message, but reflecting back now, I'm glad to know that some of those things weren't true that he said, and also that he knows he acted badly.  Maybe that makes him a better person today for knowing that about himself from so long ago.  It also makes me wonder if it had really been plaguing him, cuz that would suck for him.  I just keep thinking that I have been so blissfully happy with Gary and that once I broke up with the other guy I never looked back.  Part of me feels vindicated and part of me just feels sad for him.  But all in all, it was still kind of a cool message to get.  Thought I'd share.

Just listen to her

Well, this may be premature, but I'm writing about it anyway.  For the last couple of weeks, Scarlett keeps having near fits when we go to put diapers on for bed.  She kept telling me that she didn't want a diaper.  I told her that if she can have a dry diaper in the morning that we will let her sleep in panties.  She kept waking up wet, so we'd still been putting her in diapers.  She is 32 months now.  Well 2-3 days ago,  I was checking on everyone before I went to bed and found her stark naked.  I didn't want to chance waking her up by putting on a diaper because frankly I didn't want to deal, so I just let it go.  Tonight is the third night now that I am putting her to bed sans diaper because she has been dry the last two mornings.  I may have accidentally gotten myself into having only 1 kid in diapers now (at least till Skyler comes along next month).  I'm super excited about the whole thing and just hope she keeps it up.  When Hazel decided she was done with diapers at night she did it kind of all of a sudden too.  It's awesome.  I'm hoping Van will only be in diapers another year before we can have him potty training.  fingers crossed.

8 months pregnant

It's been about 3 months, so I thought i'd take a minute and write something.  Something is definitley better than nothing. 
Last time I went to my doctor I was about 6-8 lbs short of my end prego weight with Hazel.  That is pretty frustrating, but I'm hoping, hoping, hoping, to be able to get it all off faster than 9 months that it came on.  I can only walk, swim, or stationary bike for my cardio afterwards, so this will be a challenge.  Normally, I go with treadmill, running, and stairmaster.  I've got to  get my hips back in alignment before I can start running again.  At least I won't have to buy running shoes yet.

I have 1 month and 1 day until I'm induced.  Gary's mom will be out here, and that is mainly because mom won't be able to come since she'll be cruising.  It'll be good for her to be out here though, we love her, and she hasn't been able to be there for the birth of a baby yet.  This will be nice.

We finally bought a traverse from a dealership in Texas.  We spent probably $5,000 more than our goal, but we saved at least $10,000.  It's a tradeoff, and we'll keep this vehicle for about 4 years or so before we'll have to get an 8 passenger vehicle.  This one is 7 passenger and it just had the extra amenities I wanted, but didn't need.  I am doubting my decision a little bit since payments are gonna be more than what I had budgeted, but I'm chillin' for now.  Since we got such a good deal, we should be good to go when we trade/sell it for the next one.  Debt is so stressful.  Must be why they tell you to get out and stay out!

Gary has 6 classes left till bachelor's degree.  He's doing 4 right now plus an institute class he's teaching, plus our new baby coming.  He is busy busy busy.  I remember with fondness our childfree days, and I love our kids, but I think it's hard because it's os hard for me to move around right now.  It'll be nice when I can be more mobile, and then our kids will slowly be getting older.

I'm trying to put together a schedule so that my days will be organized.  Rough draft goes something like this:

morning:  prayer, scriptures, breakfast, cleaning, and learning time

afternoon:  naptime/quiet time, play time, makeup and husband time

night:  play with kids, cook dinner, clean up, have family scriptures and pray/fhe, get kids to bed,  exercise, husband time, journal

it's packed, but structure is good right???????? 

Frustrations:  Scarlett not listening and disciplining her.  It breaks my heart to discipline her, but she needs it.  I"m wondering if i need to be more creative with her????

Hazel, I need to figure out a good way to teach her how to write letters and learn to read without frustrating her.  Right now I'm taking the stance of practice, practice, practice.